Ok  So this is the weirdest thing… I get a text from this number that I don’t know. It happens a lot that I get calls or texts from people I don’t know, that’s not by any means the weird part! Normally I’ll just say, you have the wrong person or something so they know the person they are looking for isn’t going to respond, thier number changed. But I’ve had this number  for almost 2 years now so it doesn’t happen too much anymore. But I got a really weird vibe from this person… heres the text:

Hey sexy thing I see u haven’t texted me like forever

I was thinking of responding with something along the lines of  “probably cuz I dont know you” or something a little meaner of, “she changed her number obviously to get away from you”- but I wasn’t positive it was even a guy, a girl could say sexy thing I suppose…

So, I decide to do a little investigation. I know there’s a reverse lookup website but I couldn’t remember it, so I just typed it into google- my prefered search engine of choice- and guess what comes up… all these myspace pages of 18-20 year olds with messages saying- “thanks for the add text me ***-***-****.” or “thanks for the add hit me up sometime ***-***-****” and the best one… “Why dont you talk to me anymore, hit me up ***-***-****”  And one says his name Mark…So of course I’m curious to see who this person is, he has a myspace, he’s going to have pictures right. I click on the girls page and find the message from him in her comments section and it’s this guy on a dirtbike but you can barely see him. I was half expecting him to be older, but he says he’s 25. But still… 25 talking to 18 yr old girls… and all the “friends” are young girls on his page… creepy. The worst is he has 2 kids 4 yrs old and 1 yr old which he talks about in the info part and has pictures of… possibly to lure the girls in I imagine… and there’s only really one picture of him and his son that shows his face, the rest are of his trucks… and let me tell you… CREP-PY!

And the creepiest part… as I’m looking at his page I get another text… from him asking… U THERE? Ew! I about crawled out of my skin! haha. who texts a 2nd time to someone within minutes, to someone they haven’t talked to in forever, apparently? I felt like he was watching me or something! Gross.

Have you ever had such a busy weekend that you say, I need a vacation!!- that just wasn’t long enough and I had no time to rest!? Well folks… I’m going to get my wish! I’m going on Vacation tomorrow! YEA! Not before putting in some major work today on a busy busy day…

This weekend I feel like I didn’t stop. We went to the mall- what a nightmare that was! I get a little anxious in crowds sometimes and people down here in S. FL are SOOOO RUDE! Much more then any other place I’ve ever been. It’s a huge mall too, always busy. We had lunch out at a resturant (because the foodcourt was a ZOO), which never happens, we’re poor! (we had a gift certificate lol) Well, we did rest for a little to watch 2 of the “Left Behind” series movies with Kirk Cameron. Then… we set up the Christmas stuff!! EARLY I KNOW! But C wanted to set it up this weekend so it would already be set up when we returned from our vacation. We usually set it up right after Thanksgiving or Dec 1st, and we wont be getting home until Dec 2nd, a Tuesday, so most likely wouldn’t set it up til the next weekend. So, I humored him and agreed to set everything up. And I’m glad I did becuase it did put me in a rather cheery mood!  So that was all just Saturday! Sunday I was slow moving because I couldn’t sleep Saturday night. We stayed up way too late setting up the decorations and I was up early as usual. We had to finish setting up the decorations we didn’t get a chance the night before. Then I painted the dresser knobs!! What a process. First I had to paint them white, 2 coats. And then I practiced what I was going to paint on paper before I tried it on the knobs. It’s for the babys room so I was painting within our Frog and Duck theme. I thought about doing some butterflies and dragonflies too, but I was having fun with the frogs so I did 4 frogs and 4 ducks… to actually paint on the knobs it took me 4 hours!! that is not including all that prep time! Crazy. But I think they turned out rather well if I do say so myself!!

After the painting and brief break, I had to go to the store and then I tried to pack after dinner. I pulled out all my winter clothes about a month ago to see what would fit me over my pregnant belly! Well, it has grown conciderably since then so I had to re-try everything on and I could only fit into 1/2 of what I previously took out!! fun stuff… so instead of having things to chose from, I have just enough to last me the 8 days we’ll be in Michigan! And that includes the dress clothes I wear to work lol so i can’t be casual the whole time… owell… And that was my weekend, it’s usually not so event filled, and that was after a busy busy week. Normally during the week I dont do much after work, but Tues-Thurs I wasn’t home at night. I’m just glad I have the next week off work! It will be SOOO NICE!

 

(pictures coming soon)

I think I’m invisible today… or maybe I just want to be. Already having one of those days, rollover from the day before. Usually once I go to bed and wake up everything starts new and refreshed, unless it’s something major bothering me… but seriously, driving into work today people were acting like I wasn’t even there. They would switch lanes, cutting me off and almost running right into me, like I wasn’t there! I mean, people drive like maniacs down here, but I guess I just ran into too many of them all at once this morning and it kind of irritated me. i have a feeling it’s just going to be a “blah” day today… I hope no one bothers me! Too bad I can’t go back to bed.

sorry to be depressing today, probably not too exciting to read! but sometimes you just have to get things off your chest!…

Last night, as I was walking up the steps into my apartment (outside steps), I heard this really loud noise and wondered what it was. It sounded like a helicopter but really close to me, I heard this Wooosh Wooosh Woosh Woosh and then my hair goes flying!!! Luckily I was too tired from the long day to turn around and look to see where this sound was coming from…This huge DUCK was flying Right at me! That would have scared me to death to see him and I probably would have fell up or down the steps trying to get away. My husband was right in front of me and turned around to see what it was. he thought it was going to hit me square in the head! But luckily he just grazed me. He was trying to get on top of the roof, and I was in his way apparently! He could’nt get his fat ass up high enough to get around me. He almost took my head off!! I felt Elaine in the Seinfeld episode where her ex calls her big head and then she gets hit by a bird!  “He flew right into your head. Like he couldn’t avoid it.”  The funniest part was that neighbors were outside, they were standing in the parking lot and witnessed the whole event!  

 

PS It’s still FRREEEZZZING!!! And why did the weather channel say that the low was going to be 56 if on the same screen it said, current temp 51… um I’m not a meterologist or anything but even I can tell there is something wrong with that forcast!

I HATE Ikea! Whoever invented that store is a moron…. ok I take that back, I guess it is kind of smart to make people walk around the WHOLE ENTIRE STORE before they can get out, so they have to pass by everything. The idea is good from a marketing perspective. But it does not make it easy for the people who like to get in, grab what they want, and get out. And self check outs only?? People do NOT know what they are doing with those, thats why there are cashiers to do it for them.

Last night was only the 2nd time I was ever in an Ikea store… The first time I said, I am NEVER coming back here! but someone gave me a giftcard so I Had to at some point. I have been hanging onto that stupid gift card (For 75$ so I couldn’t just not spend it or give it away or anything, thats a lot of money!) for almost 2 years! Seriously, this Christmas would have been 2 years. But I saw some decent priced baby cribs, so I figured it would be perfect to use the money towards that. So the good news is we got a baby crib!! And the hubby put it together nicely last night. We even got a stain to match to stain the dresser his mom gave us. YEA! So something good did come out of it. But it was seriously the most stressful shopping experience of my entire life last night…. it took me the whole car ride and a stop at Baskin Robins to get icecream for me to calm down.

At work today I got the strangest phone call. And believe me, I get some doozies, but this one was on the verge of creepy. Since we had to get rid of our receptionist I’ve been forced to cover the front desk a lot and answer the phones when the admin is on lunch or before she gets in or whenever she takes time off. Yes, I love my job I have a college degree and I’m playing receptionist… great for my self esteem!

On to the phonecall…. he calls in and says, “HI, Who is this?” very cheery and like I knew him. by the way, I answer with the name of the company and “how may i DIRECT your call” obviously I’m a receptionist. But this guy thinks I called him because whenever anyone calls out the main line is the number that shows up on the persons caller ID not their extension… so anyway, at first I thought it was someone who worked here or one of our other offices, so i say my name. He says, “This is Vinny. Do you know I am?” Um, no, sorry I dont. “Oh, well you sound familiar too, you didn’t just call me?” I explain about main line and this is the front desk, all that stuff. He continues to say, “You sound like someone who used to work for me, what did you do before this?” To keep it short I just said I was in college before this, and that also negates me ever working for him if I didn’t have another job, right?? This guys voice was even creeping me out even though he seemed nice and cheery…. But he said, oh where at? “In Michigan” “Oh what are you doing down here in Florida?” OMG is he really trying to have a conversation with me right now?? I thought we established we dont know each other! Then he continues to say, “Well do you know what I do?” I’m Not psychic! “I work in fashion, the girl you sound like was one of my models in the fashion shows. Have you ever done anything like that?” “No” “Have you ever been interested in that?” OMG Is this some kind of line to try to get me into the business? is this what this call is about? Are you kidding me? Even though my truthful answer would be YES I was actually in a fashion show when I was little, and have dreamed of doing it since but just never had the self confidence that I was pretty enough, and now I’m sure as hell not skinny enough! LOL, even though that would be the truth, of course I replied shortly, “NO.” “Oh, you’re cute!” He says. CUTE? UGH dont talk to me anymore please! Luckily he cut the conversation there and said that he would wait for the person to leave a message or call him back. Because I was just about to hang up on him anyway…

see what i have to deal with? Why can’t they just hire another receptionist so I dont have to put up with this crap anymore?? LOL But at least he was friendly and not rude or incredibly stupid like most people that call in, even if he was quite creepy…

Great way to start off a Monday…I had everything going for me too. I made lunches last night so I had more time to slink around this morning and not have to rush. I woke up actually feeling good for once (haven’t been feeling well lately), sleepy, but not TOO sleepy (I actually got enough rest this weekend!) I left for work ON TIME! (BIG accomplishment) and then I drove off to work….and my car GOT A FLAT TIRE!!! It knows i’m going to trade it in in a week! It just knows and is so mad! It not only got a hole in it, it was a BIG hole, too big to just patch! I had to buy a whole new tire for a car i’m trading in in a week!! How upsetting is that?? it cost 78$ for the new tire… and GET THIS… $30 for them to put the tire on my rim!! WHAT?? shouldn’t that be part of it? and how damn hard is it to put the tire on the rim? like you Really need to charge 30$$!! AAAHHHH.

But LUCKILY my husband is very good to me and instead of calling our car ins place for roadside assistance he came to my rescue and came to change my tire (oh yeah the spare was just about flat too, not enough air pressure-20 psi’s instead of 40 i found out when I went to go fill it up later -haha) then he took my flat into the tire store, bought the new one and came back to my work to put it on for me so I didn’t have to worry about a thing! the upside for him was he only had to work 1/2 a day because of this lol, so that was his reward

So YEA! for the hubby, but BOOO! for the car and my Monday!!

We don’t go out to eat very often, so when we do, and we have a horrible dining experience, IT REALLY TICKS ME OFF! Hello, what happened to customer service here?? What happened to the customer is always right? How about he didn’t even apologize Once with his drunk ass!! Yes, our waiter was drunk….

so heres the deal… we went to Damons Grill. I ordered the new “aloha chicken” which comes with sauteed veggies and I picked a baked potato for the side. I get the chicken, and it does look yummy. two little breasts. I cut the first piece and notice it’s a little pink on the bottom. Being the careful person I am, I cut the pink part off and just eat the fully cooked section. I cut the next piece, it’s even pinker! so i cut the whole thing in half and the bottom of the chicken is all pink. Did I mention they are small too, how hard is it to cook it throughly? But whatever, I’ll just send it back, no big deal. I’m not eating half cooked chicken and getting sick! so I’m waiting and waiting for our waiter to come back. I eat most of the baked potato while I’m waiting, and I’m really starting to fume because he didn’t come check on us once since our food came out and I saw him walking around the restaurant. So I end up eating one of C’s chicken tenders cuz I have to eat more than a baked potato for dinner. so finally after we’re both sitting there not eating anymore he comes back and sees my food on the end of the table uneaten. He sits down next to me- he did this when he took our order too which kinda creeped me out cuz he was kinda creepy and had one lazy eye on top of that (I swears thats not what makes me think he’s creepy) and he wreaked of alcohol…. so I tell him, I can’t eat that look how pink it is. And he said ok, and asked if i wanted it re-cooked and I said no it’s too late now, I don’t want it. And he asked if we wanted a box for C’s stuff. and brings back a box and our bill. He didn’t take my meal off!! I didn’t eat any of it! so as soon as he walks back by I say, I’m not paying for this. You can charge me for a side baked potato since I did eat that (see how reasonable and nice I am??) but I’m not paying for the whole meal which I didn’t eat! He says, “Ok” and walks away. seriously like 10-15 mins later a manager finally comes over with the bill and asks what the problem was. She was very nice and reasonable and said she would take it off and asked if i wanted it recooked or something else to take home. I said no, I was fine, I didn’t want to wait. She  sort of insisted and said she didn’t want me to go home hungry. It was nice of her, but I’m not one for taking handouts, I don’t need anything for free, I just want what I pay for and I want to pay for what I get, you know. As she was walking away she suggested dessert to go, Cheesecake or Chocolate cake? OH Cheesecake! If you know me, you know cheesecake is my weakness!! lol. so I said, you know cheesecake does sound good. So probably 15 mins later the waiter comes back with my cheesecake to go and the bill with my meal off of it, I was nervous he spit in my cheesecake because she said she would talk to him about not coming back to do a check once we got the food. And NOT ONCE did he ever seem sorry or apologize about anything. I know that the chicken not being cooked isn’t his fault, I know that and was not blaming him for that. But don’t you think being the person who brings the food out, they should take a little responsibility? at least being the one to say I’m sorry you weren’t happy with it? Or at least taking it off the bill seeing that I didnt eat it and wasn’t satisfied? But he did nothing. So I told C he was not getting a tip from me. and I didnt want him to have our credit card after all this, plus he took forever each time he came back and I just wanted to get out of there, so I made C pay with the last of his cash he had but he was a little short, so I had to chip in a couple bucks… but we ended up only giving him $1.25 for a tip on a like $23 bill C was mad, he wanted me to give him more because he knows what it’s like working for tips. But I am NOT a stingy person. I always give min. 15% if not 20% or more if they were Really good. I definitely recognize the good servers with a good tip, but when you piss me off and are not good, my tip to you is going to show it. I won’t stiff you and give you 0 but you will def know you did not earn anything from me!

*disclaimer… this is long and personal, but I needed to write this for me, just to get it all off my chest. So read if you wish to know what’s been going on with me this past week but if you don’t i won’t be offended in any way…

I’ve been out of touch for a while, with the web and my internet friends. It seems very strange yet almost refreshing at the same time. I almost feel cleansed…which may sound strange. But life goes on with out you if you dont live it, but things on the internet, they’re still there when you get back! I could catch up on everyone thru reading past posts I missed, though the history feeds on MS and FB which i frequently visit. So I really didn’t miss anything. But if I didn’t go away this week, I would have missed a lot!

My grandfather passed away a week ago (Monday). My mom called me at 1030pm to let me know. Before I answered I knew the reason for her call, she never calls that late. It can either wait til the next day or she would send me an email. It’s kinda funny my mom has caught on to the internet generation, so much that we barely speak on the phone anymore, it’s always through email. But when it’s something important or something bad, she phones. It’s so bad that I cringe whenever I see her name on my caller ID! This wasn’t a huge shock either, I knew he wasn’t doing well and was in the hospital. But at the same time, it is shocking! I thought he was getting better, I thought he was going to pull through! And all 4 of my grandparents were still alive. I never lost any grandparents, parents, siblings, even aunts, uncles, or cousins!! The only people I’ve lost were my great grandmother- the only one I did know the others past before I was born, and a couple great uncles (my dad’s uncles) who were all very old and I barely knew, and definitely wouldn’t say I was very close with them. The only person I was close to that past was my best friends mother who was definitely like a 2nd mother to me, so that did hurt. But I was lucky because I could say she was the only one I was close to that died. Not very many people can say that. I always felt sheltered from that grief you feel.

When I heard the news, I felt disbelief. I didn’t think what I heard was real. I knew it was, but I didn’t want to believe it. I stayed strong on the phone, but as soon as I hung up I couldn’t help but cry. I cried myself to sleep with my loving husband rubbing my back comforting me. But I had to get up and go to work the next day which was difficult. It is one of the busiest days and I couldn’t leave my work undone with no notice. But trust me, if I had to fly back home or something I wouldn’t have cared I would have left, but there was nothing for me to do the next day so I might as well get into work. I had a few more cries that day when I had to explain the situation and tell my boss I needed time off. I get 3 days paid bereavement so that helps a little, so I could take Wed-Fri off without worry. So my husband and I drove the 4 hours across state to be with my grandmother and my mother who flew in from MI again. She had just left the Saturday before to go home, she was just visiting when he fell ill and was admitted to the hospital, and she pushed her flight back twice when he wasn’t doing well but then he was getting better so she left to get back to work…stupid jobs and money we must have…

In order to respect my grandfathers wishes we weren’t to have a funeral… which is actually much harder than you think. I think funerals provide the closure everyone needs. Sure its hard, it’s hard to see your loved ones crying, it’s hard when you have to take time off work and out of your busy lives and travel for it, and it can be stressful and heartbreaking to say goodbye. But that is just what you do! And it’s how you let go. I was in their condo for 4 days without him but I still almost don’t feel like he’s really gone!! I know he wasn’t there and I’ve never been there without him, but it just didn’t seem Real. But that is what he wanted. Plus, since we didn’t have a funeral they didnt have to rush with the cremation which really upset my grandmother knowing his body he was just laying there in the hospital gown. And my mom suggested we bring clothes for them to dress him, to make her feel better about it. And my cold hearted uncle said, “mother, he’s not laying there where we left him, he’s in a freezer” gee, thanks for that mental picture, i think that is a worse image for her! Shes sitting there crying, petting his gold watch he never took off which is much to big for her tiny wrist but she’s wearing it anyway, flipping it over and stroking the smooth surface face. She doesn’t argue, she doesn’t say a word. My mother breaks down from time to time, tears welling at the surface trying not to break free. She says my grandmother is holding up stronger than she is. Mom, it’s because grandma has to take her “happy pills” in order to keep from having a nervous breakout regularly. She is very sensitive and a nervous person , I definitely know which side of the family I get those type of traits from! Which i was especially worried about her since she is normally a bit unstable emotionally.

Now, I was worried about my grandma and I like to see my mom every chance I get since she lives so far away but I haven’t been feeling well lately, which just adds to the stress level of all this. So I didnt want to go and be a problem for everyone else. I didn’t want to be a distraction from anything they needed to get done with arrangements. And they weren’t having any type of service and the rest of the family was not going to be there, so she said it wasn’t necessary. So I thought I should be there, but then I wasn’t sure if they wanted me there (another body just in the way and not enough room for everyone to sleep since my mom and uncles were already there) and I wasn’t feeling well so I didn’t want to be a burden. So, Tuesday when I was trying to decide what to do, I prayed and asked God to guide me to what I should do and decided to leave it up to him. The next day I was actually feeling a little better than I had been the past few days weeks and I just had the feeling that I should be there for my family, I wanted to be there. I knew then, that that was the right thing to do and was more at ease. Now because I went, it meant that my grandmother would not be alone for a whole week. With everyone’s schedules coming and going at different times, I didnt know at the time, but it left her Friday alone all day. My uncle from northern FL and TX had already left. My mom and uncle from MI were leaving early Fri morning and my uncle from northern FL was coming back late Fri after work. So it worked out perfectly that I was there on Friday for her.

When we were riding the elevator back up to her apartment, after saying goodbye to my mother and uncle as the cab took them away, she sighed and looked at me and said, “I’m so glad that you’re here.” *heart melts* ok this was totally worth it right there. Then later on that day she was trying to stay busy doing housework and I ask what I can do for her, what I can help with. She said to me, “You don’t have to do anything but just be here.” I knew that she was grateful not to be alone, and I had made the right decision on being there for her.

One of my favorite pics with my grandparents, back in 04 when he was a lot healthier.

My poor little car… We’ve had some good memories together and she slowly falling apart! I got her my sophomore year of college, slightly used. She’s a gold 2000 Ford Focus. It was my mom’s car, but when I threatened that I wouldn’t be able to make as many trips home from college with my ‘96 Ford Escort, Big Red, they gave her to me in 2001 It was a nice upgrade at the time. Now with about 90,000 miles or so, I’ve had her in for service a few times. Of course there’s the normal tires, and brakes that need to be changed. But then the alignment has always been off even after they “fixed it.” My air went out twice now(just this summer), and it’s staying out as we’re going to trade it in soon and it cost more to fix it than my car is worth… (and its the summer… in Florida!!) my back window won’t roll down, I have to fill my tires with air every week because they are slowly losing air… and just today… she died. I was at the gas station and she wouldn’t start up. You turn the key and click-click-click-click she goes. Luckily it was just the battery and my hubby came and gave me a jump. She started up right away, just need the little shock to get her goin…

Of course I could have treated her a little better. Given more regular baths, rotated the tires more often, used premium gasoline instead of unleaded, given more frequent oil changes and not waiting til the last minute, found a place to live where I didn’t have to drive over a million speed bumps at least twice a day… and I didn’t even give her a name! What can you call a gold car anyway!? (think i’ll get too attached if i give her a proper name now? haha)There are lots of things I could have done better, if only I was more into cars and I had my own house to do things ourself so it wouldn’t cost us so much… but alas, I did not do those thing and now she is leaving me…

Now I have the burden of finding a new car- which i like And is affordable and practical, having a car payment! (yikes), and trading this girl in… I don’t even know where to start!